Baba is thriving - he’s taken to breast feeding so well I’m so proud of him and I’m just enjoying every minute I can have with him!
I was induced in the end, I delayed the doctors as much as possible and agreed that if he didn’t come the day before his due date I would be because I felt a bit of pressure that if something did go wrong it would be my fault and I was kind of scare mongered into it.
I tried everything possible to induce my labour but deadline date came and he wasn’t here so I went in to be induced on Sunday. In hindsight I never would have been induced and knew deep down it was the wrong decision but it was done for the right reasons.
It was pretty traumatic. I feel like if my body had been able to labour naturally things may have been different but I really wanted to have a positive birth experience so I’ve got some positives that I can take away from the experience and I’m focusing on those to help me through at the minute.
1) Having 2 birth partners - when things went wrong it was a comfort to me to know that they could support and comfort each other.
2) The support I had from Richard during the labour was amazing he really kept me calm and focused during my contractions so I felt in control even when things got hard. He was brilliant with caring for the baby especially when I was recovering and couldn’t move to get to him, especially being a first time dad and feeling overwhelmed himself with knowing how to look after him and the emotional support he’s been giving me every day since has stopped me having a complete breakdown and I know that we’ll get through it together.
3) The care I was given when I crashed was exceptional and Richard was able to do skin-on-skin straight away with the baby once he was born. My midwife was amazing - I can’t sing her praises enough you could tell that our care was the most important thing to her.
4) The relaxation techniques helped me keep calm when things were scary and yoga nidras really helped when I was on the wards and struggling to settle and sleep.
5) Learning how to focus on my breathing at yoga really helped with my c-section when I first had to get up and start moving around and coping with the pain.
6) My baby was worth it - I’d do it all again in a heartbeat for him. Looking at his beautiful face makes the whole experience positive because I have him 💛
Becky & Ricco's Full Story - Trigger Warning xx
went in to be induced which was a long and agitating process as it took 4 days for a bed to become available on the labour ward and commutation was quite poor so it felt like an eternity. Once a bed
became available I went to the labour ward at 5 in the morning, they broke my waters at 6 and just decided to put me on the oxytocin drip straight away (because of the bed pressure situation I think)
instead of waiting the usual 2 hours for contractions to start themselves.
My labouring wasn’t comfortable. I wanted to move around more but I couldn’t really because I was hooked up to the drip which needed to be plugged in at the wall, my waters kept coming after they’d broken so I had to stand on a mat and move out of the way at certain intervals so the fluid could be cleaned up (health and safety - slipping hazard) and the drip kept bleeping every few minutes because I wasn’t keeping my arm still which was really distracting. I managed to get on the ball and have my meditation playing and that seemed to help but I wasn’t relaxed at all by this point and the whole thing was just very clinical which is what I’d wanted to avoid.
At about 1pm after a few hours of feeling like I wasn’t getting any break from my contractions they decided to turn the drip down because they were worried they were over stimulating me and that helped for a bit I felt like I could breathe between my contractions and I managed to open my eyes for the first time in hours but I was exhausted by this point so I asked to be examined and said to Richard if I’m 6/7cm I can push through and do this but if not I might need the epidural I have no energy left and need to be able to push him out. I was terrified about needing to have interventions to get him out. So when they examined me I was 3cm bearing in mind I was already 2cm when they broke my waters so I wasn’t progressing quickly. I decided to have the epidural even though I hadn’t initially wanted one because I thought I can get some rest and then it might wear off a bit for the pushing stage and I’ll be able to get him out. But it went wrong and instead of just numbing me from the waist down it affected my whole body.
They’re not sure if it was an allergic reaction, if it was put in wrong or what but I knew within seconds something wasn’t right right I lost my sight and hearing and my whole body felt like it was being electrocuted and I don’t really remember much after that because my blood pressure and pulse dropped right down and I collapsed....
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.... Anyway they put me under general anaesthetic and performed and emergency c-section and got him out and he was safe and sound and Richard was able to do skin on skin with him straight away. They were both there when I woke up and as soon as I was conscious he was allowed to do skin on skin with me which was the best feeling in the world.
I had some breast feeding guidance on the labour ward and the lady was fantastic - really got us off to a good start. I got to the post natal ward and started to recover but after a day I started to get this really intense headache to the point where it was like the worst migraine I’d ever had and I was struggling to even hold Ricco because of the pressure in my head.
So I spoke to the consultant and he said basically he thought I had a hole in my spine from where my first epidural had been put in and now there was spinal fluid leaking out which was causing the pressure in my head and the only way to fix it was to have another epidural, take some of my blood and then inject my blood into my spine to cause it to clot and that would heal my headache.
Obviously I was terrified because of how I’d reacted to the first epidural and they couldn’t tell whether it was the drug or the procedure so they couldn’t say whether I wouldn’t react like that again so I put it off for a day because I kept breaking down with fear at the thought of even having to go back to the same room but in the end I decided I needed to be well to look after my baby so I did it for him and luckily it all went well and I started to feel loads better so I’ve just been recovering from all that since Wednesday it’s been a bit of an ordeal to say the least.
He’s worth it though I don’t think I’ll ever forget like they say you do but I’d do it all again in a heartbeat for him
and it’s not put me off having any more baba’s - they’ve just said obviously I’d have to have precautions in place for the birth and I have to wait at least a year before I can get pregnant
They’ve offered me counselling to deal with everything that happened and they’re really taking care of me in the community. It said in my discharge summary under the incidence report ‘immediate threat to life of mother and foetus’ and when I read that it all just hit me how different things could have been.
It’s not the positive birth story I was hoping for but hopefully the next one will be better and I’ve got my beautiful baba here with me now so that’s the only thing in this world that matters.
Whilst the particular complications Becky suffered with during her epidural are quite rare, it is a common story that induced labour causes a cascade of intervention that regularly culminates in a very difficult birth and start to life & motherhood.
Here is a great Fact Sheet about the statistical risks of epidural. However many women do find them to be of great relief during the longer stronger contractions of an induced labour. Nothing in life is risk free - whether it's staying pregnant vs inducing labour, or opting for a planned caesarean birth.
My advice is listen to your innner wisdom. Turn off your thinking mind and allow your body, your heart, your gut instinct to lead the way. In my experience this is rarely wrong - although it is commonly overridden by the fears and anxieties of the mind.
It is YOUR decision whether to be induced. A polite 'No Thankyou' is all you need to say if you feel that waiting for labour to start naturally is right thing for you & your baby xx
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